I Still Believe

I’ve talked about trust on this blog before. Yesterday I was talking with my friend Crystal about trust. I was driving home from dropping her at the airport and I looked in the rearview mirror at my sleeping baby girl in the back seat. I thought to myself, look at how peacefully she sleeps. She has not a single worry that we are on a major highway with heavy traffic, rain pouring down and the dangers of getting into an accident. None of that worries her. She sleeps peacefully because she fully trusts that I am keeping her safe, even when the conditions might say otherwise. Simple, complete trust. She’s not sitting there wringing her hands looking at the pouring rain, the traffic…worrying if she’s going to make it home okay. She trusts that I will get her there safely, she closes her eyes and doesn’t even look at what’s around her. What a lesson she has demonstrated for me without having to “do” anything at all! She just is!

I made a decision a long time ago to place my life in God’s hands. Completely….I’m not going to look at statistics, I’m not going to look at odds, I’m not looking at the financial pressure and the medical bills, I’m not going to look at my disfigured body from surgery and my missing hair. I’m not going to look at all the reasons why I shouldn’t trust, I’m just going to do it. And not just with my life, but I’m going to trust who God says He is even when the situation might show otherwise.

I heard a song today by Kim Walker that talks about the power of the blood of Jesus and it’s called I Still Believe. As I listened to the lyrics, I realized that I have grown up singing that Jesus is the same yesterday, today and forever…..that His blood is powerful and can change lives instantly, heal instantly. Even while I’m walking THROUGH cancer diagnosis and treatment, I can’t change my beliefs about God now because the circumstances around me don’t look the same as they used to. The stakes are higher now. I’m driving down the freeway at a high rate of speed and the road is treacherous. But I’m closing my eyes. I’m saying God you are the SAME always, your truth is constant. Our emotions, thoughts, intellect, circumstances are not. It’s relative. God, you are outside the parameters of what can be measured or calculated. It’s in the release of that control of thought and letting go is where the freedom and peace of God is found.

Below are the lyrics and a video of the song I mentioned above. It’s very lengthy, but let it play and the words seep into your soul. I claimed my healing at the beginning of my diagnosis and I wrote it down. 

Your blood makes the deaf to hear right now 
Your blood takes away the curse right now 
Your blood heals every disease right now 
Your blood sets the addict free right now 

And I still believe you’re the same yesterday today, and forever 
And I still believe your blood is sufficient for me. 

Your blood mends the broken hearts right now 
Your blood compels me to forgive right now 
Your blood transforms my mind right now 
Your blood brings the dead to life right now 

And I still believe you’re the same yesterday today, and forever 
And I still believe your blood is sufficient for me 

You’re the higher power 
Darkness cannot stand 
No longer bound to sin, I am free 

And I still believe you’re the same yesterday today, and forever 
And I still believe your blood is sufficient for me(repeat x3)